Dear Internet!
I think about recovery all the time. I want to get better so much. I want to no longer believe that my worth is determined by my weight.
I do want to recover , but I don't know where to start or how to eat properly.
ED, why ? Why can't you leave me alone ? Please leave me , please set me free. You don't make me happy and you pull me down and hurt me all the time, I am 24/7 disoriented and my mood is fucked up 24/7... I am so moody and I cannot control my mood . Whenever I say I have it under contol , I lie , I infact do not have it under contol. I want to die, whats the point anymore...
I feel like my only true friend is ED. It is there for me no matter what , the voice , even when my parents argue , it is there for me , unlike anyone else...
I hate school , ever since my chemistry teacher told me that my dad will die , so whats the point? I won't be able to save my dad...
I have lost all my motivation for school and for my studies. I hate my life.
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